2005-07-14 - 10:42 a.m.
many things!
i'm so bad at returning to this, i'm not exactly keeping the best record of my injuries' progress, :P, but some record is better than none at all.
arm swelling: the left cont. to do its thing; carry something, swell. twist something, swell. do heaven knows what, swell. less than before, perhaps less painful than before, with faster 'healing' time, but still, bothersome at best.
cure: amazingly, i finally leafed through a bk on my shelves ('THE FOOD DOCTOR'), whilst looking for more and more possessions to sell , and it had all this very good info on foods for inflammation and depression. note: advil (ibuprofen, anti-inflam), and aleve only helped so much with pain, but with the arm swelling, not at all. so here's the magic natural cure:
for inflammation, omega 3 fatty acids (found in fatty fishes like salmon and tuna), help lubricate joints, encourages healing and alleviates arthritis. i eat a big gel cap of 1000mg a day now (Salmon Oil). this info is also correlated in one of nat. geo's Adventure magazine articles (for athletes).
i also still eat a B6 100mg tablet a day. inflammation is the result of the body producing excess histamine, and B6 produces the acid that counteracts that. it's possible i still need addit. vitamin combos to make B6 work effectively, but i still have to read up on that.
avoid foods of the Nightshade family, which promote inflammation: zucchini (my favorite!), eggplant (another favorite!), tomatoes (oh my god!!), potatoes (wah!! my pommes de annes, or whatever that delicious deep pan potatoes dish is that i like to make).
eat: GINGER, salmon, tuna, oranges (vit C flushes out toxins), nuts, seeds, wholegrains, red,yellow, and orange vegetables.
i've noticed that my left arm has not swelled *as much* for the last 2 weeks or so. currently, it has maintained a nice, healthy, non-swelling appearance for at least 2 days. this is very, very, very, very good!!
i'm still trying to figure out how to eat ginger because unfortunately i don't like ginger. :P
(sigh! ginger tea? ginger candies?)
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my ovarian tumor: *mad face*. back in april the dr. at the radiology i had my first pelvic ultrasound at looked at the screen and said it was something i 'def. had to take out'. recom. on my results sheet: 'possible dermoid tumor' (a dermoid is a benign but very icky, serious tumor that can cont. to grow and do horrible things to my ovary and innards).
i have no primary phys. or regular ob/gyn. so whilst in pain i desperately look up blue cross's dr. referral and end up with--not the woman listed--but this fuddy duddy old chinese guy who'd taken over her office.
he says: dermoid?? how you can know is dermoid? you can only know if you go inside and cut it open!
42 days on birth control pill to see if the little sucker will reduce with drugs.
second pelvic ultrasound. no more pills, but then the owies return. it knocks like a mudder. got prescription renewed. dr. must now see me right away.
dr: no change in size! it has to come out! maybe you lose your ovary too if it grow too far into wall!
oh thanks, make me cry now! >:(
i have a tumor that is 5-6 cm since april, pretty much the size of a golf ball. he had better not sacrifice my left ovary just because he knows i don't plan to have children of my own!!
still waiting to schedule an appointment. i think if i ice the area it should keep the icky little dermoid quiet.
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question of the day, week, and month:
Do i feel creative today? no.
i have all my notes and attempted thumbnailing of Charm School #10 laid out on the table, and goodness, alot of it sucks. i'm surprised, i'm usually not this bad. i'm missing my mark, i'm not seeing the forest for the trees, i'm casting and no bait, i'm singing a song with no song sheet.
basically, i'm really out of touch with where the story should honestly head towards, what it's meant to express, what it's meant to close---sometimes i feel what's supposed to happen, sometimes i don't and the revelation is lost, like a wisp of bestowed knowledge so easily forgotten. what i do *feel*, irritatingly so, is that little nag nag that is my lower abdomen where the left ovary is being swollen and possibly hemorraging and internally bleeding thanks to my beastie friend. i will be very, very glad when that gets exorcised.
in other news, depression! has been alleviated interestingly enough by an attempt at Healthy living:
-switching from vampire hrs to day
-eating brown and as much less of white as possible
-fiber cereal
-fresh fruits
-fresh salads
-morning yoga
-morning walks (when the smog is not so oppressive!)
-reading comics again while i sell off my collection
-watching the accumulation of possessions finally get lighter and return some pesos while they're at it
-reducing debt
but the debt part will go up again when i do the surgery thing. and then let's (ow! that's nice, time to ice you, you little creep), see if we can feel sexy and draw sexy girls again.
bye diary,
~e
