2004-12-25 - 12:25 a.m.
oo, it's christmas.
that icky (rawther debilitating) sensation of sickly pain in the upper r. arm is now finally gone. even dug my fingers into there and nothing happened. banish!! begone!! away with ye, demon!
the demon, i'm pretty sure, was the internalizing of money problems. i don't fare well emotionally w/ debt, and it doesn't help that i did turn down more freelance (which would have helped alot), because of the holid. scheduling. a feeling of hope (and security) has come from borrowing some $ and the assurance of def., if modest work in 2005. so i should like burn incense and maybe a whole pig to the gods, yo! ;DD
it's great to eat!
i should watch it, just because that horrible ache is gone, i'm hitting the keybrd enthusiastically again, even ergonom'zed my mom's computer area (raised monitor up and back, and seat, to match level of desk for typing and setting up temp. footstool). i'm very happy with a story i've just started. the store invent. is not mooooving, but will try some stuff when i get bk with connecting it with ebay. i look forward to getting 3 stories going; lunch w/ mr. S from viz put 100% positive to the idea of switching Charm School to illustrated novel. i mean that is really....why the heck didn't i think of that?? i could still go with the half/half idea, still a comic with a few pages of written story, but going to full writing would be a relief. a big relief. then finally can do the fairy tales issue at last.
so hope. that and love, is a very good cure-all. it should be bottled.
still on the B-6 vitamin (100mg) like religion.
happy holidays,
~e!
